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See, I thought you died when the caps were thrown, white and garnet gowns to the ground like a picnic blanket on a basketball court. You in the bleachers, your mind on another thing— the ripples down below. There's no wind in a Convention Hall. That was eight years' past. More caps have been thrown since, but you wouldn't have known       as you were dead in the first place. So when you didn't show, there were no tears shed. It was at the old Yankees' Stadium the year it was torn down. I'd reserved you a ticket in the handicapped seats. As it was, there's no handicap for death. So when you slumped in your chair at work, my

Body Lost. Lost without admittance to my pain From the scars the bare the word That speaks the same Each moment spent that breaks the walls Keeps me clam inside but still it calls And its lost throughout the darkness drawn within While it's buried in the silence of my skin But the light will whisper quietly my sin But what pains me It's not the physicality Life restrains me Then the rage flows but softly it spins And then the lie wins Feels like heaven Then feels like hell Left without a soul to sell You say I have the truth the tell But I'll keep the lie I'll treat it well And the sun grows dimmer From day to night You

Body this facade's just an image my antipathy of pain close your eyes and sense me falling into your arms again once again your eyes deceive you and you're calling out my name still you crucified my innocence left me soaked in blood in shame now i'm leaving you to blame once again my eyes deceive you once again i've beaten your game this distance now between us was the silence that we shared when my soul was unduly sullen you never even cared now i laugh and seek your heartache but something just won't let me win when you slowly see my falling now into your arms again back to simple loathsome sin i can't take your eyes de

Body She's trapped inside her dreams Letting her Reality Slowly fade away A life less painful and uncertain Than the true existing day The water ripples toward the bank The moon shines toward the stars Their constellation burning brightly Just 28 tears past Mars Together they can dream and scheme Through the Milky Way Earth is just the lasting 8-ball When reality comes into play -You can never take away the pain of the game without collecting two-hundred dollars after passing Go- She struggles to be free Yet they won't let her fall asleep When the Prozac is just a fallacy And her dreams seem as a sweet reality Why must she

Body As sweet sad dreams may come and go While the stars all shine Above and below Each crying cloud on the foggiest night As your eyelids close and capture the light That's when you feel an inner presence Silently Watching Sacredly Burning Secretly Healing The seconds are turning each moment into something unknown Into life so unreal Now its harder to be, harder to feel When you want to escape from this world you can't reach This life you can't touch This face you can't see This voice you can't hear This air you can't breathe Embellished in darkness And you're longing to leave When you're not really there There's no one.

In a glimpse of Nothing Your Silhouette collided With the edge of Forever Cast in White And gleaming with Surrender Pouring th In a glimpse of  Nothing  Your Silhouette collided  With the edge of Forever  Cast in White  And gleaming with Surrender  Pouring through your Soul  Filling your Veins with  Liquid Hatred  And Nothing seemed so delicate to You  When Fear was the greatest of Depth  Like a cascading Tear  Swallowed by sheer Modesty  And the subtle lack of Trust  Could break the strongest Bond  Even when your Hand interlocked  Only with Your own  Possibly Your Thoughts  Dug the deepest Hole  And

Body One word can't fit on the first line One heart can't break unless that broken heart is doing time For all the world's another place to me Another retrospect of sanity It's such a lovely place to cross the line It's just the perfect place to lose your mind That world I know that world it's my world My world My world Everything's just fine and dandy Can't you see I've got my little piece of heaven Laugh at me you know I'm speaking foolish words now If I said that I was alone now Would you turn your back on me My world, my world Just can't seem to find a reason For the pain (Well can you?) Just can't seem to find a r

Body Life's endless reality Shatters as the dream unfolds The diamond ignites The dignity Precious gem behold The beauty Shattered lies as truth untold Now lifeless angel Caress this loveless soul See through the weeping hourglass Where the sands fill up the whole So soft and soothing is the song But beat and broken in the end Consumed with doubt and torn to pieces And Nothing's left to mend Incoherent fragments of a body filled with grief Robbed of all the memories as time arrests the thief But still Time lies, as does each whispered word you speak While gold shines in blue velvet She cries, finding another fault Perfec

Body Life strikes, when I can't breathe Oh, and I know your dancing in my bloodstream I'm drawn back, (once again), I'm fast asleep Knife strikes through my airway Cause the broken heart to bleed You're in me now... Bleeding from the inside out. Dealing with this fealing of doubt. You're this voice inside my mind That takes control of soul divine I just can't seem to find my own way around. Falling, falling, falling into your hands Lead me in the opposite direction, you're in demand I don't begrudge you the pain you place upon me Puppet Master. My strings are yours. I ask you simply not to harm me. A simple task, sir. Make

And You. And you. I dream to mimic the nights of the nights of dreams. Hold me, hold me, hold me, I'm fast asleep. Not in your arms. Asleep. Never in your arms. I wish to wish the wish of you and I. A simple wish. Hold me, hold me, hold me, I'm all alone now in your arms. Its just a dream, now in your arms. Now our lips lock, just a dream. And our eyes meet, what's a dream? And you don't. Hold me, hold me, hold me, I'm all alone. Not in your arms. Alone. Never in your arms. Now you walk by, it's reality. You miss my eyes, now it's reality. I'm going blind, so blind, I'm blind from dreaming of you, I'm blind. An

I fall over myself, the daily ritual of forgetting where I am, with bruised lips and a mug full of yesterday I close window shades, doors, eyes, I fumble with locks and knobs and hooks and the inevitable blindness fear— When the world starts coming alive again I make the seals stronger I glue myself shut, fill the cracks with coffee grounds, percolate my gaps and let the misgivings refuel. The vain clockwork of the mind keeps the pen to my fingers, the paper itching… I take a shower, hang my towel on that rusty nail called life. My architecture—heavy, I kneel, face the dredges and forget it— I am someone else, or even, two